A year later.

Today marks a year of my becoming single. I wanted to celebrate, go out and be with friends, but all I really want now it's to be left alone. What does that mean? Am I still hurting deep inside? I feel like something within me has died.. It's this normal? I guess time will tell.

There comes a time in our life's as parents were we have to give our children a chance to prove themselves as individuals, to make choices on their own and as much as we want to interfere we need to pull back and allow them to make mistakes, so they can learn on their own. How would your child earn your trust if you don't allow them to prove themselves?

Being single and dating after a 13 year marriage it's definitely very difficult, I feel like a baby trying to take my first step.. Dating is not what is used to be for sure..

How i got here...

At 20 years old i was going thru my first divorce. I was a single mother of two beautifull boys, when i met him. He was all a woman could ask for kind, respectuful, generous, loving and he loved my boys, so i married him 13 years ago. 10 months ago i received a letter from him stating that he no longer wanted to be married. 4 kids and what it feels like a life time later, here i am divorced again. so with that said, i am ready for the challenge, to see what life brings me, to open up myself again...